Escape into the Night
The balcony at the top floor of the estate offered a panoramic view of the entire grounds. Campbell stood motionless before his superior, watching his back as he held his breath.
Inside, behind him, soldiers moved busily. They were all men who had once guarded the annex and knew the ghost of the torture room.
One of them made an urgent call to the personnel waiting outside.
“Bella has escaped.”
Campbell felt a pang of embarrassment. The code name for the operation’s target—a beautiful woman. His superior’s true feelings had been far too transparent.
He stepped up beside him and looked down toward the garden and annex. According to the plan, personnel were already moving through the estate grounds and the annex.
The maid and guards in the annex followed the script perfectly, and the garden had been cleared as instructed. Everything was proceeding exactly as planned so far.
Yet his superior’s mood seemed just as twisted as the knot of his tie.
Though it was merely an operation of high risk and importance, the feeling was far more than that. Campbell, who had watched his superior for a long time, knew the reason all too well.
That woman has finally chosen to run.
As the figure of the woman walking along the path beyond the wall gradually disappeared from sight, Leon handed Campbell the binoculars and stepped back inside. He snatched up the telephone and passed the chattering soldiers on his way to the stairs.
Yes… it had been an act.
If he pretended to be in love, this man might grow careless. The woman had undoubtedly thought as much.
You’re probably convinced your operation is a success right now.
Leon smirked quietly.
As soon as he had regained his strength, she was already plotting. Of course, he had expected it.
He had known the woman’s every move from the very beginning. There was no harm in it, so he had pretended to fall in love to match her playful antics.
Unexpectedly, he had possessed a talent for deception. Falling in love had been far easier than he imagined.
Leon suddenly wondered: who would win the Best Lead Actress award in this chequered love-thriller film?
That woman was quite the formidable competitor. She had faltered at times, but she had performed her role convincingly.
Yes… it had all been an act. Yet the bitter aftertaste lingered.
He could not help but want to understand its meaning.
If he pretended to be in love, perhaps the woman would not leave him. He had been secretly nurturing that foolish hope when he realized it the moment she stepped out of the annex, gun in hand.
Perhaps he had even dared to believe that the woman would no longer play with his heart. A fool like him.
Feeling betrayed once more, he left the building and boarded the waiting car. A black sedan slipped through the estate gates and curved toward the center of Halewood, the nearest village.
Following the narrow back alleys to avoid the main road, the car stopped behind a shabby two-story building. Campbell opened the door, and Leon stepped out immediately, heading for the first floor.
Inside the closed shop, soldiers stood at attention and saluted as he entered.
Leon’s gaze fell on the highest-ranking one among them.
“The operation target has reached the objective point one minute ago.”
At the report, he made his way to the curtained window. Peering through the narrow gap, he saw the woman standing at the train station across the street.
“Place them.”
“Yes!”
At Leon’s order, a private in plain clothes who had been waiting in the corner slipped out the back door and crossed the street to the station.
The woman glanced at the unfamiliar young man who was supposedly tailing her, shrugged, and pulled her scarf tighter over her head and face.
Then she kept glancing down the road and pacing in place, clearly uneasy as if someone was chasing her. She had not noticed the trap.
“Make sure you earn an unblemished record. One that satisfies both the people and the royal family.”
Leon recalled their conversation from last summer with the commander.
“You mean we’re to exterminate the hideout?”
“That’s already your mission and something you’ve been working on. But how about this method?”
He had thought there must be some brilliant plan he had overlooked, but there wasn’t.
“We pretend to release the child and tail the mother. Of course she won’t run straight to the hideout the moment she’s free. We just need to create a reason she has no choice but to go there.”
“I’ve already considered that.”
“Then why haven’t we done it yet?”
Because even if you release a dog, it might still run off.
In fact, he had not thought of it at all.
When the idea of needing a better leash crossed his mind, a voice whispered inside his head.
Give me a child.
Immediately afterward, the image of a pregnant woman holding his child appeared before him. A strange, scorching joy flooded his heart.
How revolting.
He had ignored the primal instinct, but the night of the engagement, when he saw the woman stubbornly refusing to abandon her faith in him and the rebels, he lost all self-control.
That savage impulse was backed by rational grounds. The child of a royalist was the perfect reason for James Blanchard Jr. to betray his fiancée and the reason a woman abandoned by her comrades must return to him.
“Lieutenant, either you or I will be stripped of rank the moment her child’s true father is revealed. I will support this matter at the highest level. Complete the objective.”
The commander had also agreed to the operation and handed over full command.
“What? You must be out of your mind.”
Leon had failed to understand why the commander had insisted on impregnating the woman as part of the pre-operation preparations. That was, however, a matter outside the scope of anyone else’s understanding.
“Once this operation is a success, I will find a way to create a new identity for the child…”
At that point, Leon could have done it without relying on the commander’s favor.
“Please let the child live a normal life, treated as a human being.”
Even after repeated reflection, the words remained distasteful. He loved Grace Riddle, not his dead daughter or the father who only resembled her for convenience.
Yet that strange obsession was also strangely fortunate. The commander would never lose his life to a bullet from the commander’s gun the moment the woman stepped outside the Winston estate.
The sound of a train approaching from the end of the track made Leon’s heart race fiercely.
Go on, then. Run away from me. Return to that child. Little Jimmy or whatever the fool is called. You’ll make a rather interesting face when he sees you.
Even if the woman was a time bomb full of information for the rebels, she was still the woman he had promised to marry.
Was ordering her to commit suicide purely for the cause?
Leon refused to believe it. If he had not violated her, he would have tried to save her at least once or twice before ordering suicide.
How could such a narrow-minded man have betrayed the woman carrying another man’s child? Even if she returned alive, she would betray him again.
Then that tightly sealed woman would finally understand. That she had been deceived by her comrades her whole life, and that he alone had spoken the truth.
So the woman would break the hard shell she had wrapped herself in and be reborn anew. In that moment, all the doubts he had patiently planted would sprout, bloom into the flower of revenge. Leon believed this without doubt.
The train arrived. The stopped car jerked into motion once more. The spot where the woman had stood was now empty.
The train carrying a mouse running back to its hole—unaware it was carrying a bomb—disappeared from sight, but Leon could not tear his eyes away.
Wait for me. You’ll come back.
Before that, break your own world with your own hands and hand it to me. Then I will generously forgive even today’s betrayal.
I will gladly walk the most un-Leon-like path for you.
Grace could no longer hold back the moment she slipped out beyond the estate wall.
Today. It is today. Yes… it had been today.
Laughter kept bursting out, though it felt more like sobbing.
Unlike her racing heart, her steps were steady. It did not matter if she walked slowly. No one would come after her.
Grace recalled one of the many warnings her husband had given her.
“The ground is frozen and slippery. Walk slowly so you don’t fall while strolling.”
Yes… do I listen well? Are you watching?
Yesterday and today you were so affectionate, but today was the day the operation began.
Another laugh escaped her.
As Halewood drew closer, Grace pulled her scarf over her head and face, hiding half her features. It was awkward to be recognized as Sally Bristol.
She had been lucky. The train, which came once an hour, had arrived just after she had waited.
The train inside was nearly empty, as it was a weekday morning after rush hour. Grace sat in the very last corner and finally took out the pistol she had kept clutched in her pocket.
She ejected the magazine, pulled the slide back to check the chamber, and a laugh escaped her. Both the magazine and the chamber were empty.
So that man had given Grace an empty gun.
Moreover, the money in her pocket was barely enough to reach the Winsford safehouse. He had calculated that giving her too much money might make her try to escape alone without seeking her comrades’ help.
A thoroughly ruthless bastard.
And he had willingly used a woman carrying his child as well—a cold-blooded man.
Grace had already noticed that he was using the child. She had only realized what he intended to use it for a little over a month ago.
From the time the operation had settled into a routine, he had focused on feeding her well and making her take regular walks, as if training a military dog.
If you release me, I’ll run straight to Jimmy.
A bastard. A cold-blooded man who loves while using. I hope he’s still hurting now that he’s watching me run away.
Grace clenched her teeth, staring at the city gradually approaching through the train window.
She had prepared plans on every possible front. One of them was to disappear forever without revealing the hideout’s location.
Leon Winston, you are not the only one who can calculate.
She got off at the Winsford Opera House and headed straight for the department store. The moment she stepped inside, she stopped in her tracks. The interior was dazzling, decorated from ceiling to floor with Christmas ornaments.
Suddenly, she recalled the last time she had been here: Easter decorations had stood in that very spot. The time she had been confined felt newly sharp and vivid.
She had felt the weight of that time before, when the train fare had unexpectedly risen during the journey from Halewood and she had briefly panicked.
Unlike the sparse crowd outside, the department store was bustling. With only two days left until Christmas, people hurried through to buy last-minute gifts or check orders. Grace found their hurried footsteps and the words brushing past her ears strangely unreal, as if she were watching a movie.
Was it not a dream?
Standing motionless at the entrance, she felt a sudden presence behind her and startled.
“Madam, may I be of assistance?”
Turning, she saw a doorman wearing a silk hat and uniform offering a kind smile.
Madam?
Only then did Grace remember her appearance. Her prominent belly and expensive ring on her finger made her look like a married woman.
“No, I’m fine.”
Regaining her composure, Grace hurried across the department store, slipped the ring off her finger, and tucked it into her coat pocket. Nancy would definitely misunderstand if she saw such an expensive item.
Who is it?
At Nancy’s voice from the intercom, Grace felt relief and amazement.
The safehouse is still there.
She had once accidentally seen the Winsford safehouse report while secretly searching Winston’s desk. The safehouse had already been compromised to Winston long ago, yet he still seemed unaware.
What Grace had learned from that report was not the only thing. Nancy was not a double agent. Having already suffered a painful betrayal from Peter, Grace had carefully chosen whom to ask for help this time.
“It’s me.”
[Oh my God, you’re alive?]
Clearly an expression of surprise and joy, yet Grace felt oddly uncomfortable. Nancy was silent for a moment before whispering quickly.
[Wait, what if I go over there?]
The second line was coldly decisive after the first awkward one. Grace felt a little hurt, but Nancy was right to be cautious; security came first when the safehouse’s location was at risk.
“I’m fine. No tail.”
[Are you sure?]
“I’m sure. Nancy, if you keep stalling like this, I’ll have to worry about a military unit instead of a tail.”
Only then did the intercom noise cut off and footsteps descend the stairs. The moment the door opened, Grace smiled at the familiar face from the old days, but Nancy could not smile back.
“Oh… my God…”
The moment her eyes fell on Grace’s belly, Nancy froze in place like ice.
“Help me.”
Nancy’s mouth stayed slightly open without a word before she began scanning left and right as if looking for a way out, muttering.
“Going back to the village right now is too dangerous.”
“I know that. What I need is money, 45-caliber ammunition, and a safehouse to hide in. Look for a safehouse in a large city where immigrants are common. I’ll handle evading any pursuit myself to reach the safehouse.”
Grace whispered the plans she had already laid out along the way, then added after a pause.
“Once I solve this, I’ll go home.”
Her belly suddenly drew Nancy’s gaze. She let out a long sigh.
“There’s a post office across the department store. Wait in front of the phone booth. I’ll call you after I make my report.”
“No.”
Grace urgently grabbed Nancy as she tried to enter the department store.
“Don’t tell the officers.”
The thought that other people would learn she carried a royalist’s child made her hands tremble with shame.
Nancy stared at Grace’s earnest face for a long moment, let out a short sigh, and asked.
“Ammunition, funds, and a safehouse. That should be enough?”
“Yes.”
“All right. I’ll wait at the post office.”
The post office was also bustling, being so close to Christmas. Grace sat on a bench near the row of phone booths and kept glancing covertly toward the lobby.
Far away on another bench, a young man sat with his legs crossed, reading a newspaper.
A bastard. Did I really think you’d let me use you so willingly?
Grace reviewed her plan in her mind. First, she would get what she needed from Nancy; Nancy would then subtly hint that the safehouse had been discovered. She would then head straight to the train station from here.
First, she would check the train schedule and find a shabby hotel for the night.
Since the bastards would probably keep watching anyway, even if she loitered for a day or two, it might be better to hide in the hotel, tighten the escape plan, and rest for a while.
But if she relaxed too much, wouldn’t they notice she had figured out the trap?
Grace let out a deep sigh and rummaged through her pocket. She was hungry after the lunch hour. She had scraped together change to buy something to eat when she found the most expensive item in her coat pocket—one that would not buy anything immediately.
Why would he have given her an engagement ring?
It still puzzled her. It was too valuable to be mere bait.
Suddenly an idea occurred to her. Perhaps the man had chosen this item expecting Grace to pick freedom over him at the crossroads he had pointed out.
Her hunger suddenly vanished. She stopped rummaging and stared at the tip of her shoe.
They had found out I was pretending to love him. If I’m captured again, I’ll be locked away once more. Perhaps the future the man had promised was now blank.
A promise.
Grace let out a hollow laugh.
That had been a trap too.
Hah…
Someone grabbed Grace’s shoulder as she sank into deep thought. Startled, she looked up. Nancy was staring at her with an anxious face.
Oh no… who now?
The man had no reason to come after her right now; he would not have left his hideout ambitions behind.
They immediately slipped into the most secluded phone booth. The slender women fit easily, but Grace’s belly made it tight.
The moment Nancy firmly closed the door, she stood with her back to the glass window and opened her handbag.
“Here, take this first.”
Grace received a thick bundle of bills and opened the ammunition box, asking.
“A safehouse?”
While loading the magazine, Nancy said nothing. Only after she loaded the chamber and closed the slide did she speak.
“Grace.”
Her voice was heavy, as if she were trying to force out difficult words. Lifting her head, Grace met Nancy’s odd eyes. Nancy bit her lip tightly before uttering the shocking words.
“What about going to Joe?”
“…What?”
Joe was her older brother who had left the rebels early.
That was no different from returning to Winston. The man was watching Joe.
Nancy probably did not know. So she had not meant it as an invitation to return to Winston. There was a separate, shocking reason.
“Does that mean you’re ordering me to leave my comrades forever right now?”
“I have no choice. It’s a decision from above.”
“You said not to report to the officers.”
“Grace, I have to report everything. Still, the officers don’t know. I only told Jimmy.”
Grace’s heart sank at the realization that Jimmy now knew she carried Winston’s child. And then came the dawning realization that her heart had fallen completely to the floor.
“…So Jimmy ordered me to leave.”
Jimmy. The Jimmy she had lived with like family for her whole life. The Jimmy who had once been on the verge of becoming family.
“Jimmy made the decision with difficulty. The officers believe you’re dead. If you return alive, it will complicate things for you.”
“Why? Why?”
“How would I know? Jimmy said it was the best way to protect you, especially if you’re carrying a royalist’s child.”
Grace did not know what Jimmy had meant in that way. All she heard was that she had lost the right to stand shoulder to shoulder with her comrades because she carried a royalist’s child.
“The best way to protect me? By throwing me away after giving me just a few coins?”
Grace pulled out the bundle of bills she had tucked away and shook it.
“I’ve lived my whole life for the cause. The Blanchard Revolutionary Army will become my family. How could Jimmy… while he knows that…”
Hoo… Please calm down, Grace. Jimmy had no choice either…
Grace cut Nancy off and asked.
“When Jimmy found out I was captured, what did he say?”
“How would I know? I was preparing Fred’s funeral and wasn’t myself at the time.”
“…What? Fred is dead?”
“Oh my God, you didn’t know?”
Grace, who had heard nothing from the man other than that he had released Fred, was stunned. While she was dazed, Nancy, her face tight with suppressed tears, told her what had happened to Fred.
“Our family is still stuck in pain. My brother was brutally tortured and died in a way that even makes me unable to look at.…”
Grace, listening with lost words, snapped back when Nancy added after biting her lip tightly.
“But the fact that you’re alive doesn’t make sense.”
“What does that mean?”
“You escaped without a single injury.”
“What?”
Does she think I’m a double agent sent by Winston? Maybe she plans to discard me.
Whether or not she was a double agent, if she suspected Winston had deliberately set a trap and released her, then Jimmy and Nancy were right. Yet Grace instinctively hid that fact. Perhaps Winston had not simply discarded her but aimed to permanently eliminate her.
“I am not Winston’s double agent!”
At Grace’s protest, Nancy’s expression twisted further. In the face that had been swallowing fury, private resentment surfaced. Grace suddenly understood.
“Wait, do you really think I betrayed Fred to Winston?”
“Two of the three men stationed in Halewood are dead. You’re the only one left alive. And you’re in perfect health. No, better than perfect. To anyone who doesn’t know you, you’d seem like the wife of a great lord.”
Those accusing eyes swept Grace from head to toe. With her good color, Winston’s expensive wool coat, and the gold-embossed shoes from a famous boutique, she would not look like someone who had been treated as less than human in the torture room.
That bastard, why did he dress me in expensive things?
“This… is this supposed to look healthy?”
Grace pointed at her belly with trembling hands, but Nancy’s gaze only grew colder.
“Successfully seducing the famous seducer Winston. Truly impressive. I can’t even imagine what you did to survive. It only makes me pity my brother who once loved you so purely.”
Are you accusing me of what I did to survive?
Differing from feeling guilty about one’s own actions, being criticized by others was a different matter. Especially from Nancy, Grace’s own sister, she had no right to blame Grace.
Grace’s vision blurred.
She had believed Nancy would become her savior since she had been rescued from Winston’s estate. Yet Nancy had known nothing of what had happened there, and that madman had killed Fred and made her life miserable.
“Why did I have to spread my legs for that bastard? To save Fred!”
Grace grabbed Nancy’s throat by the collar and shouted.
“What? I loved you purely? Is turning in my name the only thing you did before they tortured me?”
Nancy’s face twisted. Grace clenched her teeth and shouted the truth.
“Yes! It was my brother Fred who sold Peter and my identity to Winston!”
Grace released Nancy’s throat, swallowing her rage and demanding.
“Apologize to me now.”
But Nancy would not easily accept her brother’s fault.
“You want me to believe it without evidence? It’s easy to frame a dead man with false accusations. Tone it down, Grace.”
False accusation. Grace swallowed her fury and forced a twisted smile.
“Oh, evidence? You saw your brother’s body, didn’t you? There was a gunshot wound in his crotch. Winston personally shot him there. Do you know why? He was aroused by an ally offering his body to the enemy to save himself. Even the devil would be shocked. If you don’t believe me, ask Winston yourself.”
Whether she thought Winston or her brother was more revolting, Nancy looked as if she were about to vomit.
“Did you hear? My brother got excited while listening to me being raped. Disgusting. Very cowardly.”
“Stop. I don’t want to hear it.”
Nancy clamped her ears with both hands. Grace pulled away and whispered right into her ear so it would burn.
“Tell me. Is it pure love that I got aroused listening to the devil violating me? Huh? Say it!”
“Stop!”
Grace pressed each word one by one into the reality Nancy was trying to ignore with her face buried in her hands.
“Nancy Wilkins, your brother is the cowardly betrayer.”
Nancy suddenly lifted her head and lunged at Grace.
“Don’t dare insult my brother!”
Insult? It was the truth.
Grace gripped Nancy’s throat tightly and clenched her teeth.
Fred was weak and didn’t belong there, yet they called him family.
“You don’t know how much pain I endured because of my father’s greed. No, you don’t care!”
At the moment Grace thought of being wrapped in a family that abandoned her as an unjust betrayer and eventually cast out, something inside her snapped.
“Did my brother die painfully?”
Grace saw the pain flare in Nancy’s eyes and curved her lips into a smile.
“I hope so.”
One hand that had been gripping Nancy’s throat suddenly fell away and slapped Grace across the face.
Ug…
Yet the pained groan did not come from Grace. Nancy twisted Grace’s wrist viciously and laughed.
“Let go, let go!”
I thought you’d weakened from being locked up. The daily fights with that man had strengthened your grip. Truly impressive.
Grace shook off Nancy’s hand like a snake shedding skin and pushed her back.
“Get out. I have nothing more to say to you.”
But Nancy did not leave the booth and grabbed Grace’s wrist as she tried to pick up the receiver.
“Don’t call Jimmy or go anywhere. Go straight to Joe.”
Grace pointed the loaded pistol at Nancy as she tried to snatch the receiver.
“Get out. Now.”
Now the two looked at each other with the eyes of enemies, not comrades. Grace wondered if Nancy might try to eliminate her. That was all it would take to make sure she never got the chance.
“Oh, you know? The moment your brother came to the Winsford safehouse, it was discovered.”
As expected. Nancy’s face drained of color.
“If you don’t want to be arrested and become a laughingstock, you’d better get out right now. Think carefully. If I’m a traitor, I’ll say this?”
And as predicted, Nancy set the receiver down, hurried out of the booth, and vanished out of the post office.
Grace began dialing after the venomous curse “Nancy Wilkins has become as vicious as Camden’s Vampire” still echoed in the narrow booth.
“Croydon 1499… ah, my name is…”
She had given Nancy’s alias to the operator instead. If she realized it was her, Jimmy might avoid the call.
[How did it go?]
“Jimmy, it’s me.”
She had been right to think so. After hearing Grace’s voice, Jimmy was silent for a moment. Grace felt the same: hearing her fiancé’s voice after so long brought more complicated emotions than joy.
“I have something I want to ask.”
Before opening her mouth again, Grace closed her eyes tightly. In the darkness, Winston’s shockingly pitiful face flickered.
“Your fiancé ordered you to commit suicide.”
She asked in a voice shaking with suppressed fury and fear.
“It’s true that I sent cyanide with the order to commit suicide?”
[I’m sorry.]
Grace forced down the sob rising in her throat. Her bitten lip hurt more than her heart.
The man’s words were correct. She had wanted to believe they were lies, but she could no longer.
No. Jimmy had no choice either, had to do it…
[I had no choice either.]
But didn’t you have the audacity to say that?
Grace bit her lip harder, her emotions completely different from moments ago.
[You know I have to make difficult and sometimes cruel decisions sitting here. Wouldn’t that lighten my heart if I sent you that? Still…]
“Did you really try to save me?”
Grace could no longer restrain her anger and interjected.
[Of course I did…]
“Not thoughts—actions!”
The answer she received from questioning him was only silence.
How… how could you do this to me?
In the painful silence, a sob slipped between Grace’s tightly clenched lips.
“You… you’re surprised I’m alive?”
Grace fully understood why Nancy’s first reaction to her survival had felt so uncomfortable.
You weren’t happy I returned. It was a burden instead.
[That’s not it…]
“You’re disappointed I didn’t follow your orders? I couldn’t follow them. Winston intercepted me in the middle.”
Tell me not to die.
“How could that devil save me while my fiancé tried to kill me?”
The devil who was ready to stake everything to save her looked more like an angel.
A long sigh came from behind the receiver.
[Grace, if you speak like that, I’ll seem even more ruthless than that monster…]
Grace stopped sobbing and smirked. Could she really say no?
At least that devil knows I’m wicked. The devil recognized by everyone, and the one who pretends to be good while committing evil in the name of being an angel. What difference was there between the two?
[To be honest…]
Jimmy lowered his voice and whispered.
[It was the elders’ decision. You knew too much…]
“I was locked away for eight months and didn’t reveal anything! I didn’t sell Fred or Peter. Fred did that himself!”
[I know that too. I know, Grace… Please don’t cry.]
[Hah…]
Even if he said he knew the truth, it would not comfort her.
[Please believe me. I regret it too. But how happy I am that you returned alive…]
“Yes, I’m happy, but I can’t raise the child of that man. Right?”
[Hah… That’s not what I meant.]
“Do you know why I ended up like this? Because I didn’t betray you! And you did this to me! You didn’t even try to save me! I just barely escaped, and you abandoned me?”
[I didn’t abandon you!]
“Then is our engagement still valid?”
Silence stretched behind the receiver. Grace could not hold back.
[Hic…]
Grace began to feel pathetic for the woman who had felt guilty toward Jimmy while in Winston’s arms.
With her face buried in one hand, Grace let out her sorrow, and the man whispered pityingly.
“I don’t understand what side of you a man like that was attracted to when he promised to marry you. Miss Riddle, you look pitiful.”
Shut up, Winston. Please, shut up.
[Grace, I have duties to fulfill…]
“Enough. I don’t want to hear any more.”
The longer the excuses, the more pathetic Grace felt for herself.
[I’m truly sorry. Hah… I’m in pain too from how things turned out.]
You could never feel as much pain as me.
While clenching her teeth, Jimmy, who had barely spoken until then, began talking as if he wanted to end the call quickly.
[I’ll send your things and money at an appropriate time. If you need funds, let me know anytime. Don’t hesitate to contact me. Grace, it pains me that our paths diverged like this. But if you return and are used again…]
At the mention of being used upon return, Grace snapped awake.
Again to catch Winston? But she could not be used as a double agent again.
Then as bait?
At that moment, the thought struck her that she could use the child in her belly as bait for negotiation with Winston, since he was a royalist’s child.
A royalist’s child.
The moment that thought crossed her mind, a suspicion slashed through her brain like lightning.
“How would you use it? Or is there some hidden role the elders have been planning for a long time…?”
[No, there’s nothing like that.]
Grace’s intuition spoke. This is a lie. There is something. And Jimmy is hiding something from me.
[It’s just that I don’t want you to suffer like this again, Grace. I want to protect you.]
The man had said the same words.
One man screams that he will lock you away, another that he will expel you. In either case, Grace’s will was completely ignored.
[Don’t forget. I’m not abandoning you. I really miss you. When things calm down, I’ll come find you. Go to Joe for now. Please, I beg you.]
Grace’s intuition spoke again. This is all empty talk.
Her mind already full of other thoughts, Grace removed the receiver from her ear and answered weakly.
“Yes, I’ll go to Joe.”
She must have sounded perfectly resigned to the person on the other end.
Grace headed for the convenience store the moment she entered Winsford Central Station. She chose a box of crackers, an apple, and two bottles of soda, then moved to the book section.
Free train schedules were available at the ticket counter, but Grace bought a nationwide train schedule book with her own money.
The shop owner glanced at her face curiously while calculating. Grace, who already knew her appearance, avoided his gaze.
She kept dabbing her watery eyes with a handkerchief that looked as if it would drip water. While the owner was looking through the shelves behind the counter, he placed something on top of the book.
“A train schedule book is included as a gift.”
It was a handkerchief neatly packaged in a delicate paper box.
“…Thank you.”
Grace left the shop and joined the long line at the ticket counter. Holding a paper bag with her purchases, she flipped through the book with one hand.
2:15 p.m. departure, 4:30 p.m. arrival in Chesterfield, 4:35 p.m. departure, 8:45 p.m. arrival.
She turned the pages to the regional schedules and was busy calculating when the man’s face kept intruding in her mind.
“You need to know the truth too. Watching you believe in that child without knowing anything was fun at first. But now I’m in pain too.”
Shut up. Please shut up.
Even when standing in front of the ticket counter, the new handkerchief was damp. As usual, she had wanted to buy a third-class ticket, but it was sold out before Christmas. The only option left was first class.
Grace crossed the noisy lobby, where voices and footsteps echoed like a cave thanks to the high ceiling, and stepped onto the platform. Standing among people loading luggage into compartments and saying goodbyes, she watched the train that would take her to hell, then a station attendant approached and asked.
“Madam, where are you going?”
The pregnant woman with teary, lost eyes must have looked pitiful. The attendant, in an overly cheerful tone, took the crumpled paper bag instead of her and guided her to first class.
Grace usually did not accept help for things she could do herself, but now she eagerly followed the stranger’s goodwill.
The attendant opened the door of the compartment numbered 1 and offered his hand politely. After being treated like a lady and sitting down, the attendant placed the bag next to her.
“Thank you.”
“I’m happy to be of help.”
The man tipped his hat and greeted her.
“May you have a Merry Christmas filled with happiness and love.”
When had she last found a holiday greeting so empty? Her Christmas had already been stained by grief and betrayal.
Forcing a smile, Grace waited until the compartment door closed.
Hah…
A long sigh filled the elegantly decorated six-person compartment.
Grace stroked her belly that had been tightening for the journey from the station.
This child is also in pain.
Her movements had quickened.
Grace took off her shoes. Leaning against the wall in the corridor, she stretched her legs along the long seat and sat. The soft cushion soon made her body comfortable, but her mind was not.
Staring at the bustling platform with unfocused eyes, she took a deep breath. She tried to calm her emotions but kept failing, her shoulders trembling.
She had lived with her older brother like family since childhood and still could not believe he could turn cruel to her.
Suddenly another quickening hit her.
Letting out a long sigh and stroking her belly, a tear from her eyelash soaked the cuff of her dark red sweater.
Grace let out a laugh that sounded like a sigh. A happy laugh.
Should I be grateful to this child I didn’t want? Perhaps I would never have seen their true faces otherwise.
She wanted to blame Winston for all the betrayals, but she could not. Whatever he had done, the decision to abandon her had been Jimmy’s.
Her intuition had whispered that Jimmy’s reason for abandoning her went beyond personal emotion.
The Blanchard Revolutionary Army never abandons captured comrades. Grace had believed that promise and jumped into dangerous operations without fear.
Yet the promise they had kept with other comrades had been broken from the very beginning with her.
“He’s not coming to save you, I’ve said it many times.”
“Your fiancé ordered you to commit suicide.”
So two of the many lies Winston had told were the truth. She wanted to know if the other half were also true.
So because the man’s words were true, he was abandoning me?
She would rather face any hell at the end of her lifelong unresolved doubts.
[But if you return and are used again…]
Used, used…
Grace stared at the destination listed on the train schedule and bit her lip resolutely. At the end of this long track, she would meet someone who would listen to everything.
Thinking of escaping Winston had now faded into the background.
Laughing hollowly, a middle-aged woman returned from outside the compartment and opened the door. She was the same woman who had been standing in line just behind Grace at the ticket counter.
Granny gave her a friendly nod and sat opposite. Grace nodded lightly as if they knew each other, then turned her gaze to the window.
She was really watching the window, observing the woman. She looked warm like Mrs. Appleby, but had a subtly military air. Her plain clothing would not be remembered if asked to describe it later.
Pip.
A sharp whistle cut across the long platform. The train attendant’s voice followed: “Please board the hell-express train!”
The platform, which had been packed moments ago, quickly emptied as doors closed one by one. To others, the sound might have been fireworks announcing the start of the holiday, but to Grace it was the gunshot signaling the start of war.
The train began to move with a long groan. The station attendants waving from the platform and the gray platform slowly receded, and the forest of skyscrapers swept past the window.
The buildings grew shorter. The train raced past factories and bare fields. At last they had left the city that had grown tiresome, yet the feeling of having escaped Winston’s grip did not arise.
“Here, take this too.”
The woman who introduced herself as Mary Baker took many snacks from her bag and kept offering them to Grace.
“Aren’t train rides always exciting?”
Grace accepted the chocolate box Mary Baker offered and nodded.
It was, in truth, nothing but polite falsehood. Since escaping Abington Beach on the early train, she had not felt excited about train rides.
Mrs. Baker was talkative. The woman who had been working as a maid at some estate and was heading home had said the train ticket had sold out and there was only first class left, complaining comically.
Grace had also thought she did not look like someone who could afford a first-class ticket.
“Where are you going, Sally?”
The woman called her alias as she habitually did and asked.
“To meet my family.”
Grace gave her destination instead of the final stop.
“A pregnant woman traveling alone such a long distance with no husband… tsk tsk…”
One might normally think she was going to meet her husband, but Mrs. Baker assumed “Sally’s” husband was still in Winsford.
Grace stared at the chocolate box she had been holding blankly. The price was not written, but it looked expensive.
Grace brought the box to her nose and laughed. A faint scent of the man’s perfume lingered at the corner.
She opened the box, put a chocolate in her mouth, and smiled at Mrs. Baker. No need to thank her for the kindness.
I knew this would happen.
A maid? No, a soldier.
It had been suspicious from the lobby of the station. When Grace stood at the end of the ticket line, the man had been standing next to the shop, walking with a measured stride as if measured with a ruler, like someone whose body had memorized training.
Moreover, the person heading home after a long time carried only a handbag, without gifts or a large luggage bag. Of course, it was ideal for tailing, but too sloppy to deceive the operation target.
“Baking a wife” smiled innocently while asking.
“Is it your first child?”
“Yes.”
“I remember when I had my first child too…”
“Excitement and fear both come with it.”
Grace deliberately smiled and acted friendly.
“But I heard it hurts terribly when giving birth. Is that true?”
“Ye… yes, it hurts. But the joy is so great that…”
She even acted a little stupid to make the other person lower her guard.
“I wonder if it’s not painful. Even if it’s not yet full term, it’s not easy to travel far with that body.”
“Yes. My belly keeps tightening these days. I’m worried.”
In truth, her belly had been fine for a long time.
The woman’s complexion suddenly darkened. She asked various questions, wondering if blood was showing in her underwear or if the quickening was felt.
“If that’s the case, it’s probably temporary fatigue from tiredness. You should rest without overdoing it…”
Even in the woman’s questions and advice, a faint scent of professionalism lingered.
As expected, a nursing officer. Even at her age, most female soldiers in the military were nursing officers, so Grace had thrown out a bait and the woman had bitten. She wondered if that devil was somewhere on this train.
At the sudden thought, Grace rejected the woman’s suggestion to lie down comfortably and stood up.
“Bathroom…”
She stepped out into the corridor and stopped.
What if they meet?
After searching every compartment, if she met Winston and they looked each other in the eye, both would be in trouble.
The man could not capture her yet, but he would have to pretend to try. So Grace would have to fake escape convincingly while pretending not to know his plan.
“Ah… excuse me.”
Just then, the attendant opened the door of the first-class compartment. Grace leaned on the rattling wall of the train and approached, asking for help.
“I’m an officer from the Western Command involved in the operation. I need to report to Captain Leon Winston right away, but I don’t know which compartment he’s in.”
She spoke in a stiff military tone as a young pregnant woman pretending to be an officer.
“Moreover, searching the compartments with my current discomfort….”
At Grace’s gesture toward her belly, the attendant nodded understandingly.
“Then I’ll look right away.”
“Ah, wait a moment.”
Grace grabbed the attendant as he tried to look into the nearest compartment.
“If he finds out I forgot the compartment number, Captain Winston will scold me… He’s really merciless. Please don’t tell him I asked; just look for him, all right?”
“Yes, yes. Of course.”
How long had the attendant been sitting in the makeshift chair beside the restroom looking out the window? He returned after checking all compartments. The moment he saw his troubled face, Grace had to suppress the urge to curl her lips upward.
“Ah… what should I do? It seems there’s no such person.”
He had not boarded the train.
Grace hid her thoughts and let her shoulders droop in embarrassment.
“Ah, this… what should I do…”
“If you took the wrong train…”
“No, this is the correct train. It seems Captain Winston missed it.”
Grace thanked the attendant and returned to her seat. She lay down with her knees bent, pretending to sleep, eyes closed.
That man would not be sitting quietly at Western Command…
Perhaps he was following by other means. Or maybe he had gone ahead to the destination Mary Baker had roughly told her.
No. If he knew the final destination precisely, he would not have needed to follow. There was no need.
She had a hunch he would wait in a place where she could easily be caught no matter where or when she ran.
Is he planning to release me and observe?
Earlier he had forbidden her from leaving the garden of the annex. The man who had never wanted to release her was apparently exerting great patience. Grace could not help but laugh.
“Is there something interesting happening?”
Mrs. Baker, who had been reading a magazine opposite, asked. Grace opened her eyes, which she had kept closed, and smiled at the woman.
“No, it’s just… not very interesting for you, Mrs. Baker.”
She had acted politely, but in her heart she thought the woman annoying.
Would she keep following her, pretending to know her, when she changed trains? She might also linger at the destination.
Moreover, there might be others tailing her besides the close surveillance personnel like that woman.
Thinking that someone might be eavesdropping on their extremely private conversation that night, which the enemy must not know, Grace snapped awake.
Reviewing her plans, removing the tailers was an inevitable task at some point. Eventually, Grace decided to stop pretending not to know the man’s plan.
“Mrs. Baker, what time is it now?”
The woman looked at her wristwatch and answered.
“Four twenty-eight.”
This train arrived at Chesterfield, the central gateway where all rail lines intersect, at 4:30 and departed at 4:35. No delays so far.
She had only two minutes left until the operation she had set up at Winsford Central Station began. Grace stood up.
“Bathroom again…”
“Pregnancy usually brings frequent urges.”
The woman smiled kindly. Grace returned the kind smile and left the compartment, wiping her smile away the moment she stepped out.
She headed toward the restroom on the right. Pretending to wait for her turn, she sat in the makeshift chair and stared at the door outside.
The train soon began to slow and entered Chesterfield Station. While Grace had been watching only the platform, she turned her head toward the opposite tracks and had a good idea.
This might be better.
A train was stopped on the adjacent track.
It would be harder for the train to notice a trap than the platform. Moreover, the many doors on the train side and the easy visibility of people moving around were the flaws.
Other trains were rarely stopped, and porters wearing round hats were boarding.
There was still time until departure.
But the time given for this train was only five minutes. The operation time was a mere five minutes.
The moment the train stopped, Grace stood and opened the door. Through the closed door of the adjacent train, she met the eyes of a porter. She gestured to open it, and the man opened the door with an odd look.
The gap between the trains was not narrow, but the distance was enough for her to jump alone. No need to rush. Grace grabbed the hand the porter kindly extended and leapt to the next train.
The moment she stepped into the corridor, Grace handed the porter a bill. The man’s eyes widened at the amount.
“If people come out on the platform and ask where the pregnant woman went, tell them she got on that train over there…”
She pointed at the postal train on the opposite platform.
“Tell him she jumped on that train.”
“Yes, I’ll do that.”
The man smiled and snatched the money, then set aside the luggage he was carrying and went to the platform.
Grace immediately walked left down the corridor of the compartment. The restroom, and three more compartments, would bring her face to face with the room where her seat had been.
Good.
According to plan. While she had been searching for the surveillance target’s movements, she had just opened the door of the compartment when Mary Baker had emerged, and their eyes met with two windows between them. In that instant, Grace widened her eyes in feigned surprise and clutched her belly, hurrying forward in panic.
Did the pretense of stupidity work? She had stepped into the trap without suspicion.
Hiding at the end of the corridor and peeking from the window edge, she saw the woman knocking on the door of the next compartment and calling loudly. At the same time, three young men poured out of the compartment and ran to the end of the train car.
As expected. He could not have placed only one man there.
Grace quickly moved to the next compartment. Halfway down the corridor, the door she had just passed through opened with a bang and the woman shouted.
“Hey! Stop there!”
She doesn’t know my name? Normally pursuers would call out names.
Grace did not stop but continued toward the end of the train car. Even in the narrow corridor, they ran while she walked quickly, and she was soon caught.
But they would not realize it was part of her scheme.
When the fools reached the middle of the train car, Grace turned around. As if surrendering, she raised both hands, but the object in her hand was far from a symbol of surrender.
Her eyes fell on the pistol in her right hand, and the pursuers stopped. Grace shook the bullet in her other hand as if displaying it.
“Now it’s not an empty gun.”
Shooting one in the air would not be as certain a warning, but stopping the entire train’s operation would be.
“Lie down! Now!”
Whether Winston was targeting anyone, the weakness was the same. Grace must not die.
Just as she had done in the annex, she aimed the barrel at her own throat, and the pursuers exchanged glances before lying down obediently in the corridor.
Still aiming her gun at her own throat, she opened the side door and stepped out. The platform clock she glanced at showed 33 minutes. Grace pretended to flee onto the platform, then turned and opened the door of the next compartment.
She closed the door and crouched on the floor, listening with her ear to the ground. Sure enough, the sound of people running out onto the platform came.
“Where did she go? Which way?”
After panicked shouts, a voice shouted that someone had gone that way. Grace crouched as low as possible and headed for the opposite door.
The moment the whistle signaling imminent departure sounded, Grace returned to the adjacent train as she had done when boarding this one.
Hah… That was close.
The train began moving slowly. Grace immediately went to the restroom instead of her seat.
Ah… I’m hungry.
She pressed her rumbling stomach and listened to the corridor outside the locked door. The small window outside showed the scenery changing from gray to blue, and no sound of people searching for her came from the corridor. It meant no pursuers had boarded this train again.
Only then did Grace return to the empty compartment.
On Christmas Eve, an uninvited guest? That’s not allowed.
She took a bottle of soda from the bag, opened the cap, stretched her legs, and sat on the seat. Enjoying the breathtaking view of the Chesterfield River and the freedom of being alone while sipping the cold soda, Grace suddenly burst into laughter.
A thrilling thrill, as if she had just successfully completed a mission she had taken on after a long time.
I had thought my body and mind would become dull from being locked up without any stimulation.
Wow, I’m still useful, aren’t I?
But the refreshing laughter soon faded.
Even I can still be useful…
The platform of Chesterfield Central Station, silent in darkness and stillness, looked like a daytime train station from one of the offices overlooking it.
In this temporary operation headquarters, the sound of soldiers talking on telephones never stopped. They all repeated the same words like parrots.
“Yes, have you seen any station attendant or inspector who saw a pregnant woman with brown hair, teal eyes, and a brown coat…”
They had called every station across the country looking for the train the operation target had boarded, but there had been no results for hours.
Outside, soldiers mobilized from the Central Command had been searching the station and the city until late at night. To find just one woman.
Most of the personnel urgently deployed for this operation did not even know her identity. They had only been told she was a recently arrested suspicious individual with important secrets about the rebels.
The moment the door burst open, the noise that had deafened their ears suddenly stopped. Everyone froze what they were doing and stood at attention, but the polite behavior only irritated the commander’s mood.
“You seem to have the time to stand from your seat. Did you find Bella who ran away from home?”
At the ashen faces, the major turned his body coldly and headed for the conference room. While the voices searching for the woman’s whereabouts tangled messily, the major gave Campbell an order.
“Call Captain McGill.”
“Yes.”
Campbell passed the instruction to the waiting second lieutenant and flicked his fingertips toward the familiar face sitting at a desk. The private who had been tailing the woman from Halewood to Winsford immediately stood and ran to him.
“Nancy Wilkins?”
He had mentioned the real name of the rebel they had overheard the woman speaking to. At the question whether he had found out anything about Wilkins’ whereabouts, the private’s face darkened.
“No new information has been obtained so far.”
The private told him how he had realized that Grace Riddle had been monitoring the Winsford base. And Wilkins had cleverly evaded the tail he had been assigned and disappeared.
“Then what about the Croydon side?”
“I received that it would take some time due to the upcoming holiday.”
“How long?”
“Expected early next year…”
The private lowered his voice while reporting and glanced toward the conference room. Behind the conference room door stood a blackboard listing tracking status. The major’s eyes burning in front of it carried killing intent.
On the way to interrogate the porter who had lied to the surveillance team, he had only been told that the woman had been taken by some human-smuggling group.
What he had wanted to hear was not the colleague who had helped. Everyone who knew the woman could guess she had used a cunning tactic.
What he wanted to know was the woman’s whereabouts, but the porter did not know where she had disappeared to either.
Campbell sent the reporting private back to his place and took a cigarette from his pocket, lighting it.
The mouse carrying a bomb around its neck had cut the wire and run.
“Damn…”
The operation prepared by the Domestic Intelligence Agency over several months.
They could not have expected such an unexpected situation. They had prepared flexible plans for various variables during those months, and the current plan was still following the one drawn up for the time she would move and disappear.
But it could not be called “going according to plan.” The further she moved, the further the final destination would be.
Campbell twisted the lighter’s wheel and could not help laughing.
No, how could a pregnant woman evade five soldiers?
Moreover, after meeting her comrades in Winsford, she had only shown a subdued appearance, so he had not imagined she would run like a foal with its tail on fire.
Campbell immediately closed his mouth after laughing and glanced at the conference room. Fortunately, the superior was pressing his forehead with his fingertips, eyes closed, so he had not seen Campbell laughing.
In the morning, he had thought his superior’s mood was twisted like the tie knot. But in less than a day, it had twisted even more than that.
Campbell knew what was at stake in this operation.
Winston’s future.
For the major who had not joined Sinclair’s fall and stood outside the King’s eyes, this operation was an absolute chance to turn the situation around.
Of course, the major had a more ambitious goal.
He had already obtained the clue to find the hideout of those mice, yet he was obsessed with sending the woman there.
Just as he was about to move to the window to light his cigarette, the door of the office opened and a middle-aged nursing officer in civilian clothes entered.
Looks like a corpse.
Campbell watched the pale face of Captain McGill heading for the conference room with pity.
Grace Riddles might be a black cat wearing human skin. Anyone entangled with that cunning woman would be unlucky.
“Major, you called?”
The major staring at the blackboard turned his head this way. At that instant, Captain McGill realized he could not look into the superior’s eyes and turned away with a start.
The afterimage left by the moment was terrible. The teal eyes that had flashed sharply in the shadow of the lamp still floated before his eyes.
After three months since participating in the operation when the promotion path, blocked by a past mistake, might open, the captain had only seen stiff and formal officers. Looking at Winston’s elegant features and refined manner, he had thought there could not be a soldier who did not suit the military.
But at the start of the operation, he had transformed into the most rigid soldier of all.
And now he was afraid he might not transform into the Camden’s Vampire he had believed to be exaggerated.
“Close the door.”
McGill stepped inside one step, closed the door, and took a deep breath. When he turned again, the major had completely turned toward her and was staring at her as if interrogating her.
The conference room began to feel like an interrogation room.
When he had first reported the situation, the major had carried an explosive atmosphere, yet he had not scolded the surveillance team and immediately focused on commanding the modified operation.
So perhaps he had called her here to deliver the long-delayed scolding. The pressure made breathing difficult. Sweat had run down her back at that moment.
“Captain McGill.”
“Yes, Major.”
“Report the conversation with the operation target in full.”
McGill tried to remember every expression and word, reporting the conversation with the woman. Then at some point, the major’s brows furrowed. Only then did she vaguely realize where she had made the mistake.
Leon let out a tired sigh.
Using a nursing officer had been the mistake. Although she had undergone rigorous training for the past three months, the lack of field experience had led to this error at such an important moment.
Leon had few choices. Female soldiers were rare, and most usable personnel had guarded the annex, so the woman had a high chance of knowing her voice.
Of the few candidates, he had chosen the nursing officer to prepare in case the woman’s condition worsened, leaving only the impression and age, but this error.
“Didn’t I clearly say? That woman is very sharp, so be careful with words and actions. Where did you hear that?”
“I’m sorry.”
“Report and continue.”
“Yes, after that I asked if it was her first child, and she said excitement and fear…”
Leon could not hold back a laugh.
Excitement about having a child.
She had only pretended to be resigned; the woman who still did not rejoice in the child had told unnecessary lies to act like an ordinary woman.
She knew this was a trap.
Since when had she known? Because of the captain’s slip? Or even before?
She had gone to the Winsford safehouse the moment she escaped. There she had obtained travel funds and headed to her fiancé. There she was betrayed by her fiancé and witnessed the rebels’ ugly true nature. And he had recovered the woman who had completely broken free from indoctrination and exterminated the hideout.
This was the development he had most wanted.
Yet that woman had performed her role as the biggest variable in this operation flawlessly.
Leon reviewed the report of the woman’s conversation he had overheard in the post office phone booth.
Even in the urgent situation, she had fought with the hideout mouse. From there everything had gone wrong. Then she had fought with her fiancé on the phone and been betrayed far earlier than Leon had expected.
That should have happened at the hideout.
Now he could only hope the betrayal would evolve into revenge.
Yet that tightly sealed woman had answered her betraying fiancé by going to the train to Jonathan Riddle Jr.’s home in the east.
The hideout was in Brayton Province, north of here. That was an unexpected harvest from the woman’s sloppy behavior.
Croydon 1499 in Brayton.
Obtaining the regional name, telephone company name, and number from the operator who had connected her call was simple.
Locating the 1499 telephone provided by Croydon was not yet clear, but time would solve it. So that was not his problem.
What was most important to Leon was not finding the hideout, but whether the woman would lead the military there. Whether by her will or unknowingly with a tail, she would appear as a traitor to the rebels’ eyes.
The ideal was for the betrayed woman to betray her comrades herself, but he had not hoped for that. He only wanted the woman and the rebel group to be branded traitors to each other.
Yet everything had gone wrong. Perhaps the woman had known his plan from the beginning.
Then there was no reason for her to go to her older brother?
She was not that stupid.
“That was all she said about her belly constantly tightening.”
The moment McGill’s words were heard, the chain of thought snapped.
“Still, she seemed healthy after escaping, so no need to worry…”
McGill added urgently, carefully observing the major’s expression.
“She seemed healthy after escaping.”
“……”
“You’re boldly saying there’s no need to worry when you don’t know.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Go immediately and tell Captain Campbell to search every hospital and maternity ward regardless of scale.”
“Yes, understood.”
The moment McGill left and closed the door, Leon stopped himself from tightening the tie knot. The fingertip touching the knot trembled slightly.
The hand that had slipped inside the jacket as if nothing had happened stopped again. Leon let out a long sigh.
When feeling stuffy, he had the habit of biting a cigar. But after the woman’s scent made him nauseous, he had put the cigar case away.
Instead, he walked to the window and opened the curtains. No matter how much cold night air he breathed in, the boiling anger and anxiety would not subside.
A passage from the book he had read floated in his mind. It had said tightening in the belly could be caused by mental shock.
Leon clenched his teeth, recalling the mice who had given her the shock.
I’m grateful you moved according to my calculations, but you should have done it more moderately.
Soon the father of the child in her belly would experience firsthand what “moderately” meant to someone who did not know it.
After receiving several confirmations from the doctor that the woman was healthy, he had still hesitated to start the operation until the last moment.
After watching her slowly wither, Leon had long abandoned the illusion that she would not break no matter what he did. He had also long abandoned the illusion that he wanted her to break.
Yet he had pushed the operation. Extreme medicine was needed.
If left as is, there would be no future between him and the woman. Even if he discarded the dregs of hatred and changed right away, the woman who had fallen into vain belief would not change. She could never live her life in the same cycle of hatred.
Leon tried to look into the woman’s mind that was as dark and distant as the darkness beyond the window.
She had obtained funds and weapons from her comrades. I’m watching, so I won’t go to the hideout. That’s why she took the train to her older brother, but she evaded the surveillance in the middle.
Two choices here.
One, go to the hideout.
What reason would there be to go there after being betrayed?
Stubbornness? Revenge?
If she wanted revenge against that child, use me. Don’t think you can do it alone.
They were already tracking trains heading toward Brayton, but no reports of sighting the woman for hours.
Then the second choice, heading to a third location.
The worst case for Leon. From what he knew, the woman had no other relatives. If she hid in an unknown place, he might have to search the entire kingdom, no, the entire continent, like finding a needle in a haystack.
The only clue he could believe was her unchanging teal eyes, no matter how much she tried to change them.
When the teal eyes he had seen countless emotions in beneath him last night appeared, Leon roughly ran a hand over his face. An unpredictable woman. The tender time last night felt so painful it was like a dream.
Where… where exactly?
While Grace had been staring at the empty platform and dissecting the situation that had occurred that day in time order, Leon suddenly lifted his head.
No. There are three choices.
He immediately opened the door and ordered.
“Contact the original train she boarded and her original final destination right away! Campbell, instruct the surveillance personnel at Redhill Farm to immediately resume tailing Jonathan Riddle Jr.”
Third choice, the train to her older brother again.
“Sometimes the simplest answer is correct even in difficult problems.”
Recalling the woman’s arrogant voice again, he smirked. Yes, he had simply been bothered by the tail.
The moment the door of the tavern burst open, the noisy atmosphere burst out into the empty night road. Immediately, a group of heavily drunk men staggered out and headed toward the farm area at the edge of the village.
While his colleagues were still chattering about tonight’s boxing match, one man in his late twenties kept glancing back occasionally.
Someone was following at a distance of about a few steps. Even if it was just crossing paths, there was reason to judge it as pursuit.
A young woman walking alone in such a rural area at this late hour when midnight was approaching.
It was dark, so only a silhouette was visible, but the woman’s gait did not carry the usual anxiety of a woman walking alone on a night road.
Is she a soldier or a Blanchard?
The men split off one by one at the fork. The last colleague walking in step with him waved before disappearing in front of a shabby building.
“Charlie, enjoy Christmas.”
“You too.”
He returned the festive greeting and continued walking along the dark muddy road, rubbing the frozen tips of his ears with gloved hands at the corner heading toward the farm entrance.
“Joe.”
Someone called him by his real name, not the alias.
“…Grace?”
Joe was startled and turned. The woman who had been following him was his sister. Surely the one who had said she was on an operation in the west, what was she doing in the east?
“You came without telling me…”
“Tell me everything. All of it. The truth.”
It had arrived. Now, finally.
This was Joe’s first thought upon facing his brother who demanded the truth.
The story would be long. It was not the time or place, but when Grace had insisted on talking, Joe had no choice but to take her to the old warehouse.
He lit an oil lamp on the table with a match and sat on an old wooden chair.
“Sit down too…”
His gaze upward stopped as it brushed past Grace’s belly.
“My God, what happened to you in the meantime? Is it Jimmy’s child? When did you get married without telling me? This is quite rude. Wait. You came alone? A pregnant woman wandering around in this cold night? Ah, no way. Let’s go home right away. Have you eaten?”
Joe, completely unaware of the situation, tried to understand alone and stood up, grabbing Grace.
“We’ll talk about this later.”
She sat Joe down again and sat opposite her.
“Before that, I have something to ask.”
Joe, who knew his sister’s stubbornness well, nodded and gave up.
Grace took a deep breath, blew it out like a sigh, and asked.
“Am I really your father’s child?”
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You already know and are asking. Joe opened his tightly shut mouth.
But the answer did not come easily. He had practiced endlessly in his mind for the day this would come, yet when it arrived, the words would not leave his tongue.
“Please, answer honestly.”
Joe eventually shook his head with difficulty. His sister’s face immediately became sullen as if holding back tears.
“…You have a different father.”
Yes, as Winston had said. Grace swallowed the rising tears and nodded vaguely.
“I don’t even know who he is. I’m sorry.”
That was something I already knew. I could not say it.
“Then how… did you come to be like this?”
She had asked despite not wanting to believe Winston’s words that she was the product of a dirty honeytrap, so the pained expression on the face of the brother sitting opposite her darkened further.
“This is something even a drunk me finds hard, and you sober…”
He buried his face in both hands and let out a long sigh before standing up.
“I can’t bring myself to say this with my own mouth. Go to Mother.”
Joe’s hand, after visiting home, held an old diary and a bundle of faded letters. He handed only the diary to Grace and went out again.
While the sound of striking a match outside to smoke and curses echoed, Grace opened the diary with the resolve of someone lifting a coffin lid from her late mother’s grave.
At first it was ordinary. Only the trivial story of her marriage to Jonathan “Johnny” Riddle, her adoptive father, and not her biological father.
However, gradually pages appeared with writings criticizing the unfairness of the world and the monarchy, followed by pages filled with goals and sacrifices for achieving the cause.
Grace quickly flipped through the pages that were no different from her own diary when she suddenly stopped her hand.
At first I thought it was a simple infiltration mission, but Johnny kept making more demands. He said the leadership should set an example, so I don’t know what to do. God, is this the right path?
Still nauseated by seducing the dirty royalists to fulfill my government role, but if I think my sacrifice will lead to their downfall, I can endure.
How can Johnny watch me live with another man?
After that, the pages were filled with the rebel creed Grace often recited.
A second child was born unexpectedly. Still, a child is always a blessing. So maybe I can stop taking on the mission for a while?
God, why do you give me such trials.
Clearly the child’s eyes, which had been dark blue when born, had changed to teal.
I cried all day long after hearing insults that I was stupid for not knowing the child had a duke’s baby. What should I do about this terrible mistake?
The child’s half is royalist. The angel-like child now looks like a dirty monster.
I thought of putting the child in an orphanage, but everyone opposed it. Even Johnny, who had initially agreed, changed after spending time with James Blanchard.
Why force me to raise a dirty royalist’s child? It’s painful.
I thought of abandoning the child in the orphanage, but I was caught midway.
I was severely criticized by everyone at the round table for over three hours. They said if I tried to run away one more time or broke the rules, they would give my son to another couple. Please, don’t do that.
Grace could not bear the subsequent outburst and quickly flipped through.
So when will the monarchy fall?
Blanchard seems to think he is the king. Or God?
Grace started going to school. The basement of Blanchard’s is only teaching a few leadership children. In truth, it’s more like a fanatic’s church.
Only last night did Johnny explain why. The reason the elders had asked to raise Grace.
Hearing that, I felt sorry for the child and braided her hair that morning. Then Grace proudly told her friends she had braided her hair and called her pretty.
She received cold stares from those who knew her real father. A stupid thing.
Anyway, a plan where a dog eats a dog and a pig eats a pig. The more I think about it, the more disgusting it is. What meaning does it have for the royalists to unknowingly kill their own comrades?
Probably they feel perverted joy there.
Moreover, they plan to use the child to shake the royalists someday. Impressive. There is a plan to damage the royalist’s honor and cause internal division by making the child an illegitimate son of the royal family.
This seems to be Blanchard’s idea.
I agreed that there would be a need for negotiations with the royalists, and the child could become a bargaining chip with her real father.
But I can’t understand why it’s propaganda.
A daughter of the royalists and a royal bloodline joins the revolution. Even the royal family feels disillusioned with the corrupt monarchy and joins the revolution.
Propaganda like this will damage the royalists’ honor.
But to do that, I eventually have to tell the child about her real father, don’t I? When I asked, Johnny’s answer was strange.
So show the child only the bright and hopeful side of the rebel army. Even if the child knows my secret, make sure she doesn’t betray us.
Is that even possible?
Johnny said he would hide and educate thoroughly, but to my ears it sounded like “brainwashing.”
The child who had hoped to make more friends at school felt pitiful. The leadership feared the child would escape control. They did not allow her to actually go to school, saying she should not receive inappropriate information from outsiders before “completion.”
This tiny child. It’s like she’s being treated as a secret weapon. Unbelievable.
In the end, the monster was not the child, but them.
I don’t want the children to know what I do. Especially since Grace is too young, I worry she might think it’s a normal task for a female comrade if she finds out.
A boy would have been better. Or at least an ugly appearance.
How long will they keep this eleven-year-old child locked in the village?
I forced the operation to take Joe along with Grace. The child also needs to know the outside world. How will you use a fool who doesn’t even know how to take a train? This time the persuasion worked.
Still, seeing her excitedly talking about her first train trip, I feel uneasy.
In truth, I feel that way. I wish the child had disappeared like this. A kind-hearted family who came to Abington Beach for vacation had taken the child away.
Somehow the child seems to be facing the same fate as me, so I become more anxious.
Taking her to Abington Beach was probably a mistake. I didn’t know it would turn out like this…
Grace has changed. Blindly. Like my eyes when she stepped into this place following the monster named Jonathan Riddle. It makes my chest tight.
Now I might be no different from a monster. I can’t look at my face in the mirror smeared with makeup because it looks so ugly.
Blanchard probably told his son what I do. The bastard looked at me with strange eyes today, and I felt dirty.
Am I afraid the children will find out? What would they think of me?
Grace is only fourteen. The devil took her out on the operation and made her shoot people to death. While she was gone, Johnny laughed pleasantly while drunk, saying he killed a piglet for a piglet.
Disgusting.
Grace, please. That man can never be a good man.
Damn it. Johnny gave Grace lipstick for her birthday. It was a whore’s lipstick.
I’ll kill him.
The devil is finally dead! Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!
Tap. I can’t look anymore and closed it.
“Yes, I felt the same when I first read this diary.”
Grace lifted her head with difficulty. Joe, standing at the doorway in the cold wind, threw his cigarette butt roughly to the floor and crushed it with his foot.
Grace, staring blankly into space, suddenly stood. She did not know why she had suddenly stood. She rubbed her goosebumped arms, covered her mouth with a sudden wave of nausea, and wrapped her distorted face in both hands before staggering in front of the table.
Too many emotions rushed in at once, canceling each other out. Reason came back before the paralyzed emotions.
Grace held out the diary to her brother. Her hand was shaking nakedly.
“W-when did you know?”
“Which part?”
He asked with a bitter smile.
“When I was five. I still remember. I asked what crayon color to color your eyes because they were only one year old, and the house was turned upside down.”
Joe let out a long sigh and closed the door, coming inside.
“Adults said you would be hurt if you knew, so you had to keep it secret. But…”
Joe snorted, as if amazed.
“I never imagined there was such a dark purpose.”
“So when did you know?”
“All of it, your role, your mother’s role… When I found the diary while sorting your mother’s belongings.”
Joe took one step closer, roughly rubbing his cheek with one hand, staring at Grace as if trying to say something difficult.
“Grace, now I can say I’m sorry, but your mother didn’t die in the operation.”
At the endless confession, Grace was again stunned.
“I sent her to the hospital because her drinking was getting worse every day.”
“What? Why didn’t you tell me?”
“You might be too disappointed. You always thought of your mother as a hero and wanted to see only her wonderful side. And your mother said she was embarrassed to see you and not to talk about it.”
“No matter how,…”
Grace held back her surging emotions and asked.
“Hah, so how did she die?”
Joe closed his mouth. His lips drooped, and his eye sockets slowly became wet.
“…By her own hand?”
When he nodded faintly, Grace buried her face in her trembling hands.
Mother had been her lifelong goal. Whatever the great hero said was law and the Bible to Grace.
Yet in truth she had been cruelly exploited and met an even crueler end.
Her throat choked with tears that would not come.
“I decided after seeing this.”
Joe picked up the diary that had fallen from Grace’s hand, brushed off the dust, and continued.
“I had to leave. Before Mother’s pressure reached Martha and me.”
“So that’s why. I thought… you fell in love and betrayed the cause and the comrades…”
She had misunderstood and been disappointed that her brother had succumbed to the ugly reality. Grace could not continue.
“Yes, so you couldn’t take me with you. Do you still remember?”
“…Yes.”
Grace remembered vividly. When he had said he was leaving with his lover Martha, how she had accused him emotionally.
Realizing how stupid she had been, countless emotions surged and tangled inside her. Now her whole body trembled.
“I thought about telling you the truth, but I thought I had to wait until you suspected to some extent yourself.”
“And my fiancé happened to be Jimmy.”
Joe nodded.
“If you knew, you would have told Jimmy everything. Then all our mother’s hard-won legacy would be stolen by the Blanchard army, and we would live imprisoned or, if unlucky, eliminated.”
Grace lifted her head and looked at Joe with odd eyes.
“And you would hand over the legacy to Jimmy to use as military funds with your own hands, right?”
“Legacy?”
Joe searched the inner pocket of his old coat and handed her something. The bundle of letters he had brought with the diary earlier.
“Your father, no, Jonathan Riddle, that devil, hid the property he left after his death. Your mother retrieved it and kept it for us.”
Grace hurriedly opened the letter. Her hand, which unfolded the neatly folded letter, began to tremble more as time passed.
“Grace…”
Joe, watching her brother bite her lip while opening her eyes wide, approached and put a hand on her shoulder. The comforting touch carried pity and apology.
“I’m all right.”
Saying “I’m all right” in a trembling voice. There was no truer or more unbelievable word.
“There’s no way you’re all right. I felt the world collapsing beneath my feet back then, but you’ll feel even more. Especially…”
Joe’s gaze fell on Grace’s belly. He let out a long sigh and muttered with a curse that he should have said it then.
“Grace.”
He asked her who was reading the letter.
“You’re leaving Jimmy?”
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It was a question filled with urgent desire to leave. When Grace nodded, he let out a sigh of relief.
In truth, he could not say she was already abandoned, but he could no longer hide it forever.
“What about the child?”
“This child is not Jimmy’s child.”
Grace hurriedly folded the letter she had read to the end and put it back in the bundle, revealing the truth. She put the bundle in her coat pocket and lifted her head. Joe was looking at her with a confused expression.
“T-then whose…”
At the ominous feeling, Joe asked in a trembling voice. His intuition was probably correct. Grace did not hide and briefly told him everything that had happened.
From infiltrating the officer’s estate, through the moment he showed interest in her as a man, the command from Jimmy and the officers to seduce, Fred’s betrayal, and today’s events.
She did not mention what had happened while locked in the estate. And her past with that officer, Joe did not know.
But this was enough answer. Joe’s face gradually twisted, and his fists clenched until his knuckles turned white, trembling.
Bang. The fist slammed the table, making the lamp light flicker roughly.
“The bastard who deserves hell!”
The one Joe cursed was Jimmy, the brother he had once cherished like family.
“Do you know what that bastard promised before leaving the rebel army?”
Only then did he reveal it. Before leaving the rebels, he had extracted a promise from Jimmy. That he would not use Grace as the elders’ dirty plan and would never take part in seduction.
When seduction was mentioned, Jimmy had made a slightly unpleasant face, saying he was worrying too much.
“A woman I love, and a woman who will be the mother of my children. Why would I make her do that? I don’t like it more than anyone, so don’t worry.”
So he had extracted the promise that he would definitely protect Grace. Easily. Too easily.
“I believed you and left you, but…”
Joe covered his face and muttered painfully. I’ll kill him. That bastard will tear him apart.
Yet Grace, who had no expectations of Jimmy anymore, felt neither sadness nor surprise.
“I’m sorry. Really, I was too stupid. I’m really sorry.”
“It’s not your fault. You don’t need to apologize.”
Grace instead comforted him and tightened her collar.
“I wanted to stay longer, but I have to go. I’m sorry I couldn’t see the nephew or Martha. Please live happily. I’ve always been grateful.”
Her final greeting made Joe’s face pale as he grabbed his sister who was trying to leave the warehouse.
“Where are you going? Christmas is coming soon. When Martha knows you came, she’ll be very happy. Don’t go. Live with us, okay? When the surveillance calms, we’ll go to the New Continent. Come with us then. Please don’t go.”
His hazel eyes trembled anxiously. Joe was imagining something, and Grace knew. He believed she was going to die.
Looking at his desperate face, her heart ached yet warmed in a corner. She thought there was a family that cared for her.
Yes, I want to go with them too. But not yet.
Grace steadied her shaking heart and pulled away from her brother’s hand.
“Joe, if I stay here I’ll be captured again. And I won’t die. I still have things to do.”
Leaving her brother’s face wet with tears, she stepped outside into the darkness and suddenly turned back.
“Leon Winston, the major of the Domestic Intelligence Agency at Western Command, will come looking for you within a month at the latest.”
At the infamous name, Joe’s face drained of color.
“Tell him honestly that I came. No need to lie to him and cause trouble. He probably already knows everything.”
Because the man who knew me better than I did.
“When everything is over, meet me across the sea.”
Grace forced a smile and said goodbye.
Grace,
When you read this letter, I will already have left this world.
I’m sorry for leaving you with this pain after trying to escape it.
In truth, I’m not sure now. Thinking about the shock truth would bring you, I’m not sure if this is the right thing. Even so, you continuing to be in those people’s hands is, after all, wrong, so I’m boldly revealing it this way.
In the letter I left for Joe, I wrote the location where my diary is hidden. Ask the child. The truth you need to know is inside.
That I revealed my secrets I had hidden for so long is embarrassing. I can’t even lift my face.
I wanted to remain a handsome and respectable person to you forever. But to make you open your eyes to the truth, I must first shatter that illusion.
Grace, I am not a hero saving the world, only a cowardly fool.
The time when I hated and resented you innocently as an adult is regrettable. After that time, I wanted to give you affection, but the eyes around me were too sharp and I couldn’t.
I was stupid.
I should have fixed it sooner, and not telling you the truth until you became an adult was also incredibly cowardly.
Realizing that growing older does not make one an adult, I feel it every time I look back at my past.
Grace, no matter what you think, you have done nothing wrong. I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.
Please take care of your body. Don’t throw it carelessly to those dirty bastards.
Never expect the devil’s gang to appreciate your “sacrifice.” To them, you are nothing but a means.
So please, please run away.
Don’t try to find out who your father is. I’m worried it will only hurt you more.
Just consider the past as past and live your life.
I’m a horrible human who can’t even be called a mother, but I want to help you live only for your happiness by leaving everything behind.
Go to the capital. There is a safe deposit box in your name at the main branch of the Royal Heritage Bank. Look inside it.
Of course, I’m not trying to use the money to cover up my past wrongs. I only hope it becomes a stepping stone for you to leave and start a new life.
Grace, do you remember Aunt Florence? My brother who lives in the United States of Columbia.
I told Florence you wanted to settle there. Please come help anytime.
While you’re still in this land, they will continue to use you. So go far away.
And I have one more thing to advise.
Please meet a man who sees you as an end, not a means. Forget everything and enjoy ordinary happiness.
It’s ridiculous to regret now, but I lived wrongly too wrongly.
The ideal of a life of equality is not bad.
Yes, the ideal itself is not wrong. The wrong is always committed by humans.
Is the human so greedy that he cannot achieve the sublime cause? Isn’t it better for the world that the ignorant person who gives all his coins to the beggar rather than the so-called awakened person who uses the cause to exploit other humans?
I also… I’m talking too much. I’ll stop here.
I’m not shameless enough to say “I love you” to you.
I only hope you find happiness, forever, from hell.
Angela
Walking without end, facing the cold winter wind as sharp as the truth. Tears mixed with wind occasionally fell on her prominent belly.
Hic…
The worn iron rail under the pale moonlight cast a faint glow. Using that as a guide, Grace kept walking and walking.
It was late at night when all trains had stopped. No sound came from the end of the track as deep as a abyss.
Yet inside Grace’s mind, countless voices echoed like a daytime station.
“Grace Riddle, you are direct evidence that the Blanchard rebels use dirty seduction.”
At first I thought it was a simple infiltration mission, but Johnny kept making more demands. He said the leadership should set an example, so I don’t know what to do.
“The leadership should set an example.”
“Didn’t you receive the order to seduce me, your fiancé?”
“The bastard who deserves hell! Do you know what that bastard promised?”
“Miss Riddle, marrying a pimp means you’ll become a whore.”
“You don’t think this excessive sacrifice?”
“Never expect the devil’s gang to appreciate your “sacrifice.” To them, you are nothing but a means.”
“The ideal of the revolution will be born eating the blood of comrades and bearing fruit.”
What did I spill my blood for? My mother, the orphan who died in the camp, and countless unknown women. For what, for whose ideal did we all spill our blood?
The sublime cause, the deeper loyalty than blood, all were illusions. The world I had lived in and known my whole life was all illusion.
The bird opened its eyes. Facing the world made of lies and deception, all the contradictions I had forgotten became clear. A crack.
Hoo…
Between the dragging footsteps, the sobs that had come occasionally gradually grew longer and turned into pained weeping.
Birth brings pain and destruction. The bird must break its own shell to be born.
“All of you deserve hell!”
The cry of the woman who had resolved to break her own world with her own hands and be reborn tore the night’s silence.
On the morning before Christmas Eve, the Chesterfield temporary operation headquarters felt calmer than the night before.
The telephone bell rang and voices asking about the woman’s whereabouts continued as usual, but the frequency had decreased thanks to the narrowed search range.
Yet the tension remained taut.
Campbell was organizing reports to send to Western Command when his gaze fell on the superior standing by the window. The major had taken off his jacket and rolled up his shirt sleeves.
As if torturing someone.
Campbell’s mind flashed through the list of people the major would want hanging upside down. Yet the one being tortured right now was the major himself.
He still looked oppressive, yet vulnerable.
The major had not eaten or slept while searching for the woman and had guarded this office all night.
But this morning he had probably stopped by the hotel to shower, shave, and change clothes…
Campbell looked at the major’s shirt collar with odd eyes.
So he had definitely changed clothes, yet the tie knot remained the same.
The major who had set strict rules for clothing would not have tied his tie in such a way again. It meant he had loosened the tie slightly when removing it to take it off, then retied it as if putting on a noose around his neck.
Is it from that woman?
Campbell’s eyebrows rose.
Before running away, he put on a noose and left. A vicious woman.
Soldiers with her appearance transferred to the platforms had been placed at eight platforms.
Even after releasing them, Leon had not left the window where he could see all platforms at a glance.
He had thoroughly searched the train she had boarded, the regional train to Jonathan Riddle’s home, the transfer station, and the final destination. His guess had been correct.
A station attendant had testified seeing the woman on the train. The station master at the rural station closest to Redhill Farm had also seen a pregnant woman in an ill-fitting large coat getting off the last train of the night.
However, whether she had reappeared at any station, they had called every hour since the train resumed operation but had only received the answer that they had not seen her.
Perhaps the surveillance on Jonathan Riddle Jr. had been resumed too late. The surveillance had reported not finding any trace of the woman at the man or his residence.
She might have hidden secretly, so additional personnel had been instructed to search that area. Keep 24-hour surveillance on Jonathan Riddle Jr.’s movements but do not approach yet.
Then one day…
The paper announcing the train approaching the railroad crossing and entering the station rang in the distance. Leon pressed his throbbing brows with the tip of his fingertip. This was the eighteenth time he had heard it. Meaning seventeen failures since he had stood here.
Hah…
Stupid. He did not know the train schedule.
She had definitely gone to her older brother. She would know she would be caught if she ran there. Yet she had to go, meaning she had business there.
Guessing what business was not difficult. At the end of that thought, last night he had reached a conclusion.
That woman will come back here.
But if she had taken the first train, the time after returning to Chesterfield would have long passed.
How much longer must I wait? No, please appear before today’s last train.
Closing her eyes tightly then opening them, Leon saw a train slowly entering platform 8. The train stopped completely, and dozens of doors opened as soldiers standing at intervals on the platform turned their heads left and right to check the passengers disembarking.
While scanning the nearest compartment, Leon’s gaze stopped at a second-class compartment. Familiar clothing and familiar face. When the third compartment door opened, his heart began to race fiercely.
She had returned.
From that moment, one second felt like one minute.
Two soldiers who had recognized the woman started following cautiously behind her. But they had to stop after a few steps. The woman had sat on a bench.
As if waiting for someone.
“McGill!”
At Leon’s call, the captain who had been waiting in plain clothes in the corner jumped up.
“The operation target is waiting at platform 8. Return to your position immediately.”
McGill hesitated, not answering quickly.
Return to your position. Her role was close surveillance and tailing of the woman.
“Major, the operation target already knows my face and identity…
“That woman already knows the operation. She came back to attach a tail. Go immediately and find the next destination!”
“Yes, Major!”
McGill ran out of the office. Leon turned his gaze to the window. The woman’s expression, checked with binoculars, was grim.
She is moving according to my prediction.
She looked exactly like yesterday. Yet something felt different, perhaps the captain’s imagination.
While pretending not to notice, the woman turned her gaze from the platform she had been staring at to her.
“Another one, Mrs. Baker.”
The woman greeted her with a cheerful voice, but a chill ran down Grace’s spine. While Mary Baker was awkwardly smiling in response, the woman stood and began walking.
It was not running away. The woman walked leisurely as if leading her somewhere.
They arrived at platform 3 where the northbound train departed. The woman entered the waiting room in the center of the platform and sat.
Grace looked up at Winston’s puppet and took a deep breath. Jimmy’s voice had been echoing in her head since earlier.
[If you return and are used again…]
I’ll willingly be used. At least decide who to use me for.
She curved her lips into a smile, breaking the silence she had kept through eight months of hardship.
“I’m going to Blackwood village. It’s my hometown in Brayton Province, a small rural village with fewer than three hundred residents. I’ll have to get off at Witheridge Station, so if I fall asleep, please wake me?”
“Yes, of course.”
McGill answered dazedly and turned. She gestured to the soldier standing at the entrance that the woman was being monitored and returned to the temporary operation headquarters.
“The hideout’s location is Blackwood village near Witheridge Station in Brayton Province. The enemy’s maximum scale is 300.”
At McGill’s report, the temporary operation headquarters officially began preparing for the rebel extermination operation.
“Bring the map!”
At Campbell’s shout, soldiers tore the large map on the wall and spread it on the conference table. Soon a flag was planted in a small village surrounded by a river and mountains in the northern forest.
“The Witheridge train departs in 43 minutes.”
A soldier who checked the train schedule reported. Leon asked.
“Arrival time.”
“Arrival at Witheridge Station at 16:28.”
The given time for the first stage of operation preparation was 43 minutes, and the time until the extermination operation began was approximately six and a half hours.
Leon continued issuing orders without stopping.
“Campbell.”
“Yes.”
“Immediately call the airbase in Chesterfield. Arrange for three transport planes that can carry personnel.”
As the operation commander, he had to arrive at the operation site before the woman. To do that, he had no choice but to use the air route.
Campbell left the conference room. Leon gave instructions to one of the waiting officers.
“Add one or two more carriages to the train. Immediately summon the station master.”
The distance was over five hours by train. Transporting troops by military truck would be impossible.
Yet had the woman slept well last night? In this cold day, where had she wandered? Had she eaten? Was the child healthy?
Half his nerves were focused on the woman outside the window, and Leon commanded.
“Telephone, bring it here!”
Only Western Command troops deployed here could not occupy and arrest 300 people. Northern Command support was needed. Someone brought a telephone, took the receiver, and said the Western Commander’s number to the operator while fixing his gaze on the map, calling the officer behind him.
“McGill.”
A bill was tucked into the fingertips of the hand extended to the captain.
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“Chesterfield Regency Hotel restaurant. Don’t forget dessert.”
The train had entered the platform much earlier than the scheduled departure time. Grace had opened the door of any first-class compartment and lain down. There was no ticket, but the attendant would not throw her out.
Suddenly she remembered the name “hell-express train” she had given the train last night. What should a train carrying hell be called?
Chuckling, the compartment door opened. No need for greetings, so she was about to close her eyes when the woman handed her a large paper bag.
“I brought food. Eat while it’s warm.”
Using the honorifics used for superiors on the rebels. The woman must have noticed that the relationship between her and her superior was not ordinary.
Grace sat up. She took the box from the bag and placed it on the adjacent seat. The smell of food soon filled the compartment.
Grace opened the lid of the box with the logo of some hotel embossed in gold and could not help but smile bitterly.
Roast turkey with cranberry sauce and roasted vegetables drizzled with truffle gravy, mince pie sprinkled with powdered sugar, and a layered trifle with strawberries.
A meal suitable for Christmas Eve.
“This is the first time I’ve had such luxurious combat rations.”
Mrs. Baker, sitting opposite with a stiff posture, said nothing.
She had not eaten all day yet her belly was not hungry. While Grace was poking at the food, Mrs. Baker asked various questions about Grace and the child’s condition and tried to confirm. Grace refused because it was bothersome and lay down, and the woman showed a troubled face.
That man must have given it.
Grace closed her eyes and listened to the platform noise to calm her nerves. The train had departed much later than the scheduled time.
Now she faced a forced march as intense as last night. This was the only time she could rest comfortably, yet she had not slept for over five hours.
“Entering Witheridge Station.”
She sat up at the officer’s words. Familiar scenery passed outside the window. After a long time. Perhaps the last.
Suddenly the day she had first come to this station came to mind, and Grace turned her head to the corridor window. On the opposite platform, a few people were waiting for the train.
And between them, Grace saw a girl. The image of an eleven-year-old girl excitedly talking about taking her first train and going to see the sea came, and Grace could not help but turn away.
The train stopped, and Grace stepped out without hesitation. At a rural station, the number of passengers disembarking was small.
Still, Grace, having exited the bustling station, looked around in front of it. The center of Witheridge had not changed much in two years. The bus stop was still right in front of the train station.
“Blackwood, one ticket.”
At the roadside stall selling bus tickets to the village, Grace’s gaze fell on a pretty chocolate on the display.
Still there.
The chocolate she had gathered pocket money to buy but had been too cheap to buy every time and had given as a gift to a pretty boy she had never seen before. She had regretted later buying it again at home, but the reason she had not tasted its flavor was because seeing the boy’s face had brought back that day at Abington Beach.
She could not muster the courage to buy it today and turned away. Perhaps Grace would never taste the flavor of that chocolate.
She did not want to know anymore.
That night the boy had died.
Suppressing the surging emotions, Grace stood by the roadside. The sound of the nursing officer behind her buying the same ticket came.
Lifting her head from staring at her toes, the red sunset was setting over the low buildings. It looked like blood.
She took a deep breath. Clenching her fists tightly, the ticket crumpled. Grace turned only her eyes sideways and stole a glance at the black sedan stopped far down the road.
That man was probably watching her now.
A bastard. But a useful bastard.
The bus arrived. Grace disappeared into the bus, and McGill followed her. Leon watched the bus following the car from the car window.
“Follow.”
At his order, the driver began driving the car after the bus. Leon did not take his eyes off the bus following the meandering rural road, lost in thought.
Today was a historic day. The day the Blanchard Revolutionary Army’s hideout fell would be recorded in world history, and the day Leon Winston forever conquered the fortress named Grace Riddle would be recorded in history.
Leon had already rented a hotel suite room nearby. To let the woman who had spent two exhausting, cold days rest deeply. Tonight he would embrace the woman and drink champagne.
The troop deployment was already complete. Blackwood village was already under occupation, so to speak.
Some soldiers were disguised as travelers to complete the internal situation check. The village was in a festive atmosphere before Christmas Eve. The bastards were completely careless.
In the military, orders had been given to distribute the woman’s appearance so that since she was a double agent she should not be attacked and must be protected as a priority upon discovery.
All preparations were complete. Only the final step before starting the extermination operation remained.
Grace Riddle’s betrayal.
Leon had long waited for the moment when that woman would fall as a traitor in front of hundreds of comrades’ eyes.
No matter if you love me or not, what remains for you is only me.
As that moment grew closer, Leon found it harder to hold back his laughter.
Grace. Grace. Once a disaster, now a woman whose name means grace.
To the woman who had brought the best Christmas gift, Leon vowed to gladly give her everything he had and smiled. It was still the smile of an early winner.
Dense pine forests, farmhouses with moss on the roofs, flocks of sheep grazing on the mountain slopes, and the river sparkling with the glow of the setting sun.
The bus crossed familiar scenery without slowing.
After crossing an old iron bridge and a short distance, the pointed church spire appeared beyond the forest. The place Grace had seen exhausted for almost her whole life.
The bus stopped. Only two passengers disembarked at the remote station with no people.
“Welcome to Blackwood”
Grace passed the old signboard at the village entrance and walked without hesitation.
From afar, the sound of bells and carols faintly came. As the settlement appeared, colorful fabric scraps hanging from strings crossed above her head. A faint scent of cookies and wine came on the cold wind. The atmosphere of the festival she had always missed.
As the square with the church grew closer, Grace faced the villagers one by one. They all stopped what they were doing and looked at her with startled eyes.
It was the holiday when everyone returned to their hometown. Yet no one greeted the returned Grace.
Home?
Grace suddenly burst into laughter.
What a joke. No one sees me as family or comrade.
Suddenly, the word “comrade” became funny and she laughed again.
The goal was to create a world of equality, so they had called each other comrades while pursuing equality from within the rebel army.
Yet within the group that claimed everyone was equal, the right to sit at the leadership round table went only to some families who had been the backbone of the revolution in the past. In other words, it was hereditary.
They created class while claiming to abolish class. They discriminated while claiming equality.
That contradiction was finally visible. She had lived 26 years in such blind eyes.
“The king is corrupt, but at least I know I’m corrupt. The mice of your rebel army who think they’re corrupt but clean are even dirtier.”
Yes. Yes, you’re right.
Clean on the outside while dirty inside, hypocrites.
“I said seduction is dirty, but I didn’t say you are dirty.”
Yes, that’s also right. The dirty ones are them.
In the end, Leon Winston had spoken only the truth.
Funny. Really funny.
At the moment she realized she was funny for empathizing with the enemy’s words.
Enemy? I am no longer a rebel.
No, they are not rebels either.
The man’s words were correct. A revolution led by a minority without popular support is nothing but a rebellion.
Oh, I thought I was a knight of justice.
I had devoted my whole life to justice, but it was injustice.
She let out a laugh mixed with tears, and the villagers she met stared at her like a crazy woman.
I endured such ridiculous hardship only to protect these hypocrites. I was really stupid.
“This is all for your comrades. We should hurry to free them from indoctrination and stop useless sacrifices.”
Yes, that’s also right. All your words are correct.
Her vision suddenly cleared. She had finally entered the village square.
The farther toward the center of the square, the clearer the carol became. The excited voices also clearly entered her ears.
In front of the church, in the center of the square, a huge pine tree stood. At the top, a large star hung, and in front of the tree decorated with colorful ribbons and brightly lit candles, a statue of the Virgin Mary holding a newborn was placed.
The people gathered in front of it one by one recognized Grace and stopped, then began whispering. They had deliberately opened the flap of her coat to clearly show the belly.
Among the shocked faces, some gave her pitying eyes. On a day honoring the baby Jesus born from a virgin, they looked at her like a whore for having a bastard child while trying to protect herself.
Grace stared at them, raised her fist she had been clenching, and lifted it.
The time had come to atone by punishing.
Pointing a finger at each sinner one by one, she shouted so the entire village could hear, or rather the one who would bring hell could hear clearly.
“Hypocrites! You too, you too, you too! All of you in this village are accomplices!”
Surprise slowly changed to hostility and disgust on the faces of the hypocrites. In the uneasy silence, the sound of hurriedly running footsteps came from behind.
When she turned, the nursing officer who had been following her earlier put a whistle in her mouth and ran between the buildings. As if waiting for the apocalypse knight who had come on Judgment Day, Grace calmly watched the spot where the woman had disappeared, and someone suddenly grabbed her from behind.
“Grace!”
It was Jimmy.
He was looking down at Grace with a pale face.
Hah…
She had thought his face would make her angry, but laughter came first. A face completely unchanged from two years ago.
You haven’t changed. I’ve become so broken.
Between the sharp whistle slicing the sky, Jimmy dragged Grace forcefully toward the nearest building, the village hall. She followed obediently. She had calculated.
“Damn…”
The moment he brought Grace inside and closed the door, Jimmy buried his face in his hands and groaned.
It was as Nancy had said. Grace’s clothing and color were too good for someone who had lived comfortably in the king’s pigsty.
Moreover, the king’s piglet’s…
At the sight of the belly sticking out from the flap of the king’s coat, which was clearly that greedy devil’s, Jimmy closed his eyes tightly. He could not bear to see such a thing.
While trying to endure the pain and closing his eyes, Grace was a moment away.
“I told you not to come back. If the officers find out…”
Slap! A lightning bolt struck her cheek.
“Cowardly bastard.”
Jimmy stared at her blankly while touching the swollen red cheek, and Grace gripped his throat tightly with both hands.
“You ordered other women to be seduced like you did to me.”
At her insult, Jimmy let out a long sigh and began making excuses in the tone of calming a hysterical woman.
“Grace, I told you our work is far dirtier and more shameful than you think. Inevitable sacrifices come with it.”
“Ah, yes. So your role is to hide safely and peacefully in this remote village and force inevitable sacrifices on others. Isn’t that right? No, sacrifices! This is exploitation!”
However, Jimmy showed no remorse. Despite forcing Grace to be seduced, he claimed everyone had done it willingly, and that as the leader he had no choice. It was disgusting.
“Yes. Now it’s your turn to make excuses that the elders ordered it. Then are you still the leader?”
“Grace, please calm down…”
“Monster.”
“……”
Jimmy looked at Grace with dazed eyes as if he had never imagined she would say such a thing in his lifetime. The man who had lived thinking he was a knight of justice while committing dirty acts.
“You are the monster. This dirty monster’s den should not exist.”
At the moment she delivered judgment with clenched teeth, the sound of car tires scraping the road outside echoed like a roared scream. The endless carol suddenly stopped, and screams took its place.
Soon the sound of gunfire echoed.
“Jimmy, soldiers!”
A urgent voice calling him from outside the door. Grace, stunned, followed the Jimmy who ran toward the inside of the hall calmly and laughed.
Leon Winston, you bastard. I’ll take my revenge. Useful bastard.
Jimmy entered the meeting room with the old round table, lifted the carpet, took out the key, and opened the secret space on the floor. Coming down the stairs to the underground, his hands held several rifles and ammunition boxes.
“You stay here.”
He left Grace and ran out of the hall without understanding the situation.
James Blanchard Jr., please pray for luck. You will experience the pain I went through.
She stared coldly at the monster disappearing outside the door, then looked at the secret door he had not locked.
Resistance was quickly suppressed.
Leon stepped down from the car and stood in the center of the square, twisting his lips into a smile.
“How boring.”
That was ultimately his fault. The more perfect the preparation of the operation, the more boring the actual event.
“It was too perfect.”
He looked around. Soldiers with rifles raised their hands over their heads in signal, and the prisoners were being herded into military trucks. They looked like sheep being driven into a barn.
The gaze from the trucks moved toward the church where smoke was rising from broken windows. The church, which had been expected to put up stubborn resistance, had been easily captured by a few grenades thrown through the stained-glass windows.
Leon turned his head toward the side of the square where the sound of groaning injured and repeated whimpering of a coward continued.
In front of the building that looked like the village hall on one side of the square, a makeshift barricade had been erected shabbily. Around it, the last resistors who had been captured were kneeling or pressing their heads to the floor with the barrel of a rifle.
The sound of military boots stepping slowly on the cobblestones grew closer, and people lifted their heads. In their eyes, the tall man approaching with a whip in his hand and a black trench coat flapping, from the dark blue darkness, looked like the grim reaper.
Leon stared at the people looking up at him with fearful eyes and furrowed his brows.
They all looked like ordinary rural people. How could he not believe that such boring people had made his father die miserably and caused countless people to suffer for decades?
But now was not the time to be idly contemplative. He pointed the riding crop in his hand at them and asked.
“Where is your overall commander? I want to see his face.”
Then the young man kneeling behind the barricade slowly stood up, clenching his teeth.
“James, Blanchard, Junior.”
Leon spread his arms wide and raised his black leather-gloved hand high in admiration.
Like meeting a star, the fool glared at him with eyes burning with contempt and rage.
“I’ve always been curious what your face looked like.”
Finally seeing the man’s face, Leon laughed.
That woman had even brainwashed his eyes, it seems.
“Campbell.”
At Leon’s gesture, Campbell took the man from the soldier who was restraining him and brought him in front.
“Ah, I almost forgot to introduce myself. I am Leon Winston, major of the Domestic Intelligence Agency at Western Command and father of the child in the belly of your fiancé. Ah, so I am no longer your fiancé?”
At the moment Leon curved his lips into a smile, Blanchard tried to spit at him despite being a prisoner. Of course, before achieving his purpose, he was kicked by Leon’s foot and fell to the cobblestones.
“Oh, the welcoming speech is too much. I’m happy to finally meet you, but you don’t seem to be.”
Whip whip. The sound of the whip cutting through the air and striking the leather glove was fierce.
“You sent an invitation to come to my estate personally, but you didn’t come. You didn’t even send a reply saying you couldn’t come. Then the only thing you sent was a love letter to another woman’s. It was poison. Unbelievably rude.”
Blanchard, who had been pushing himself up with both hands like a dog, glared at him as if to chew him to death. At that moment, Leon noticed something and pushed the crop tip under the man’s jaw, smiling.
“By the way, is this face from that woman?”
One cheek was red. The man, still not understanding his situation, tried to turn his head after whipping him, so Leon grabbed his hair and made him look him in the eye.
Staring at the man who had become so pathetic that it was hard to believe he had once been the leader of a rebel force causing terror throughout the kingdom, Leon could not help but click his tongue.
“Why did you trust that woman to the end? How did you brainwash her? Tell me. No, that can wait….”
He released the man’s hair. The eyes sweeping the surroundings turned back to Jimmy.
“Tell me. Where is my woman now?”
It was the moment he asked while curving his lips again.
BOOM!
The explosive sound that shook the ground echoed into the sky that had turned black.
Leon unconsciously listened to the distant gunfire.
Good and evil fight. No, humans fight. Greedy humans.
Grace suddenly realized. There is no absolute good or absolute evil in the world. Only human greed.
So from now on, she decided not to side with anyone. Following her mother’s will, she would live only for her own happiness.
Grace walking through the dark forest path with an oil lantern in one hand and a heavy luggage bag in the other suddenly stopped.
“Hmm…”
It was the moment she made an annoyed sound and turned back.
BOOM!
An explosion sound came from somewhere deep in the dark forest, and something rumbling as if collapsing underground made the ground vibrate.
“I’m still useful.”
Grace chuckled and continued walking. The forest path soon ended and a wide river spread before her.
Walking south along the riverbank, a small pier appeared. At its end was a motorboat moored that did not suit a rural village, expensive.
Grace pulled off the cover on the four-person boat and threw the luggage into the back seat. The bag contained the money stolen from the underground safe, and weapons like a pistol, a dagger, and ammunition.
A sloppy bastard.
It had been fortunate that the bastard had not broken the habit of putting the key in the desk drawer. Grace untied the rope tied to the pier in one breath, boarded the mahogany boat, sat in the driver’s seat, and inserted the key. The engine immediately started and the engine roared loudly.
It was Jimmy’s favorite boat. The fuel gauge needle was at the top, as if recently maintained.
“Good…”
Grace, having prepared to run away, let out a long sigh while stroking her belly with clear quickening.
“You go with me for now.”
It was a night with the moon rising. The eyes that had been gazing blankly at the invisible end of the silver-glittering river slowly became resolute.
The winter river where beasts slept in hibernation and migratory birds had flown south was quiet. The gunfire had stopped, and only faint carol sounds continued.
While one side was fighting a war, the village across the river seemed to be having Christmas Eve festivities. Grace hummed the familiar melody of the song praising the savior.
“Have mercy on us, forgive all our sins…”
The lips that had drawn pious words suddenly twisted.
One must pay the price to be forgiven.
And there was one more person who must pay the price.
Leon Winston, it’s your turn to struggle in hell.
If falling in love had been the start of revenge, Grace’s revenge against that man had been completed with his eternal disappearance.
And there would be no period to that revenge.
Grace shifted the gear without hesitation. The boat roared and cut through the river water sparkling with moonlight.
The woman named grace had given hell to all sinners.
And disappeared.
Continue in the next chapter.